A post dedicated to my beloved Father

It had been really tough for you for the past 10 over years. The long term medication due to your various prolong illness had made you miserable. Not able to eat your favourite durian & many food due to your diabetics, not able to drive around or walk around & doing things you want to do must be a torture. Everyday you had to drown so many pills to make you stay alive.

Past years, you had been in & out of hospital so many times, with increasing number of times since last year. You had bravely storm through all the ordeal and discharged to be back home each time you were hospitalise.

We sense something is not right to you for the past month. Then you started talking weird things on 22nd. On 24th, you were admitted again. The doctor claims you had passed the danger stage and is stable now. Might move out of ICU to normal ward tomorrow if blood test results are ok. We thought you had braved through another stage successfully!

But NO! This time I can see your willpower to live is damn low. You had decided to end all the suffering. On 26th Feb 2012 at 8+pm, you had choose to leave your wife, your 2 daughters & Son-in-laws and your 5 grandchilden to a place with no illness, no pain, no pills and able to walk freely. Can I call that place Heaven?

My biggest regret in life now is not able to go visit you and see you for the last time before you decided this chose. Why did you want to suffer the loneness and not wait for us before depart? Did you feel leaving w/o letting us see you for the last time is best for us? You leave me feeling sad, guilty & memories that shall engrave in my memory cells for the rest of my life.

I hope Heaven will bring you a new life with no more sufferings and you'll be very happy there driving around eating your favourite food and doing things you loved to do before you were bed ridden.

R.I.P PaPa! You are deeply missed by
your family!